All my life, I got nothing but pain and sadness, the feeling of being lost and alone forever. Why does live have to be so complicated? All I was is someone to care about me, and stand by my side. I've had always personal issue's to deal with, all my fucking damn life. The people I hold close to me, always end up dead and gone. Is there anything, that will keep me from being unhappy. I try to show that I am happy on the outside, but really I am in pain on the inside. Nothing should keep me from getting hurt, but I get hurt anyways. I've been betrayed all my life, lost the friends that I hold dear to me, and I hold secrets inside me, that make me want to just break down and cry.

Every time I do my best to make things from getting worse, it happens anyways. Is there anything, such as happiness for me? I smile, but still I am hurting. My sadness tear's me up inside, till there is nothing left, to be happy for. I feel empty and alone all the time, I try to be a good person all the time. But I always end up hurting the people I love.

Does God have a plan for me? I am not sure really, I've done the wrong things all my life, I feel this dark pain inside me, as if someone took my soul from me and sent it to the depths of hell. I hold many secrets inside me, that I cannot reveal to anyone. It hurts to think about the person I hold dear to me, losing them in the end. Will I find happiness ever?